My soulsister is coming tomorrow and I will take a break (!) from studying and share the stories of my past 4 months with her.
'Das sind ja ganz neue Töne' she said, when she heard how consequent I was with some of my changes.
I have opened the eye of my heart that I had, for some reason, closed for so long. And I have learned to keep certain wisdoms for myself.
Because there is no one (!) who could understand what you mean, if you would just start to talk. Like back then, in the Age of the Wisdom:
[...]Aber wem willst du das erzählen? Würden die beiden neben mir verstehen was ich sage, wenn ich einfach das erzählen würde, was mir durch den Kopf geht?[...]No, and because there is no one that understands you, don't bother enlightening their shallowness.
[...]Ich versuchte das, was mir auf der Seele lag, in meine Augen zu spiegeln, in der Hoffnung, jemand würde mich verstehen, ohne dass ich meine Angst überwinden musste.[...]vielmehr ließen sich die Menschen davon beeindrucken, wie sie leuchteten, und vergnügten sich am Feuer dieser. Es war entzückend für sie, das Brennen in mir, doch für mich war es[...]Stummer Schrei. [...]
But the silent scream is and was that has given the wisdom to some humankind. That is the inexpressible force that keeps life going and keeps the eye open. Looking out for danger during times, where the one-eyed-evil is going to pursue you, that he is the missing piece of your life.
And here, this is a dark piece on my bright side, my checkered floor of my spirits. When will I start living like a normal human being and be an almost 24-years old young woman..and stop stepping over dimensions?
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